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Oct. 28th, 2012 11:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alas_a_llamaI'm exhausted, so this is just going to be a quick State of Eric rundown by way of bullet points.
- Currently not feeling suicidal.
- Haven't self-harmed for several days.
- No longer habitually drinking vodka, although this stuff is really weak anyway, it's like 27% content. In fairness, it was about eight pounds, and it works okay for cooking or adding a slight extra flavouring to scones.
- Have tentatively regained interest in food over the past few days. My body protests a little whenever I eat, and a lot if I eat too much, but the interest is there. Tentatively. Sort of. At times.
- Have been eating at least one moderately sized meal every day.
- Am feeling much less scuppered by insecurity.
- Slowly starting to feel vaguely sort of creative again. Maybe.
- Still irritated by passive-aggressive shenanigans from certain corners. Still tired of it.
So. Slow going, but after that considerable dip I'm recovering okay.
Not slept for twenty-four hours or so? More? So I'm going to eat a banana (I'm limiting myself to two a day, because the last time I ate bananas for their tryptophan I, er, gave myself potassium poisoning. So that's a thing. Which was unpleasant. And apparently could've been life-threatening, which was not my intention) and then sleep for a while. Just a nap or somesuch.
Back later.
- Currently not feeling suicidal.
- Haven't self-harmed for several days.
- No longer habitually drinking vodka, although this stuff is really weak anyway, it's like 27% content. In fairness, it was about eight pounds, and it works okay for cooking or adding a slight extra flavouring to scones.
- Have tentatively regained interest in food over the past few days. My body protests a little whenever I eat, and a lot if I eat too much, but the interest is there. Tentatively. Sort of. At times.
- Have been eating at least one moderately sized meal every day.
- Am feeling much less scuppered by insecurity.
- Slowly starting to feel vaguely sort of creative again. Maybe.
- Still irritated by passive-aggressive shenanigans from certain corners. Still tired of it.
So. Slow going, but after that considerable dip I'm recovering okay.
Not slept for twenty-four hours or so? More? So I'm going to eat a banana (I'm limiting myself to two a day, because the last time I ate bananas for their tryptophan I, er, gave myself potassium poisoning. So that's a thing. Which was unpleasant. And apparently could've been life-threatening, which was not my intention) and then sleep for a while. Just a nap or somesuch.
Back later.
